Responsiblity? Where did that come from?

Wow! So last week sometime, I had a mini epiphany. For a long time, having large projects would fill me with so much anxiety, that I would freeze and not accomplish much of anything. And while I could sometimes push through it, I never felt like I did as much as I could/should do, and I was never happy with how projects ended. Needless to say with my Nepal trip coming up, there was a lot of things beginning to pile up and I was starting to doubt my ability to pull this off, and that's where the epiphany came in. The funny thing is, it really came as a small piece of advice from a friend. I asked him what he did to accomplish big projects and he said that instead of making lists he just picked off the small things one at a time to get them out of the way and then when the little stuff was gone he could focus on the big stuff.

So here's my epiphany:
Lists cause me to freak out.



It's not the work that needs to be done. It's not that I can't handle a whole bunch of things. There's just something about long lists that scare me senseless. So I stopped looking at the lists and just tackled whichever of the tasks I felt most like doing at the time and Voila! I am productive, responsible, and actually looking forward to my trip!!!! And I haven't gotten rid of the list all together. It's still sitting in my notebook, but I only look at it every couple of days. I know what needs to be done and I'm perfectly capable of completing it. Hooray for me!

Alright, I know that wasn't as exciting for the rest of you as it was for me, but it is good news for all of you. Wanna know why? Because now taking care of my blog isn't on one of my lists, so I enjoy it even more. Hooray for me again!

Ok, ok, this is general ranting getting to the extreme. I promise to write something more meaningful soon.